im just cruising the net
and doing what i miss lately
im also uploading some files
so that my gradpage would finally be finished

i bought a duncan sheik cd awhile ago
heard the first five fab songs
its really cool
cant wait to listen to the other songs...
be back tomorrow,
still have to study the last subject i havnt finished reviewin'
and that is auditing theory! i hate that subject
its really boring.

just sittin' in my room
got tons of things to do
can't seem to funtion
im already well and good
back again from my vices
how can i get rid of 'em?
really don't have an idea

every split seconds
i reckon her
probably it's just fate that breaks us apart
will i have a chance to be with her again?
probably not!
she has her own life now
but the memories are fresh as the morning dew
how can i forget her?
the time we spent with each other
we really had so much fun
but where are we now?
suddenly i'm all alone
looking at life in a miserable way
yeah! only time can heal
nominal value is always deceiving
as fas as i show how i'm reacting
the yield rate is always concealed
i don't wanna look like a fool!
but within the portals of my mind
i still fathom possibilities
but could i ever find an opportunity
i think not
i'm damned for all eternities
the depths of the shadow has swallowed me completely
finding reason seems illogical
radical explanations are hard to grasp
maybe it's just the way destiny works
we were not meant to be
but still
i keep on waiting for the right time
the right time to accept and get it over with
its hard! yet im coping
when will i find somebody new
later? tomorrow?
or even never!
why is that when one falls in love
it seems like she's the only person whom you'll love
can't command my heart from stopping
i want to end it but i can't
want to find somebody new
but it keeps on beating
why am i such a fool for her
sometimes i think i'm a creep
maybe i don't deserve her
its beyond the boundaries
maybe there simply a hairline between love & friendship that exists
its simplicity i can't absorb til now
my troubled mind seems to be relentless
i'm tired of thinking
i'm tired of expecting
each day, each night
i kept on praying
that i wanted everything to be over
emotions seem to be uncontrollable
its just a shame that my heart can't write her off
maybe one day it would be over
but now, i must bear this cross
its hard to cope up with reality
but surely, i'll meet someone
destiny will arrive sooner or later
good things shall happen
i know it!
i just have to be patient
it will make me a lot happier
the principle of equality!
the same burden that im carrying
would be the same glorious moment i'm yearning
it will happen one day
who knows?
it might still be her
or someone even better
it would bring me to salvation
take me out of this damned world
she shall relight my broken path
i'll just wait
til that time arrives...

-rondz
-feb 15, 2003

its mid-feb already and i havent finished reviewing for most
of my subjects. i got all messed up because of this asthma.
right now, its already subsiding and i should really have to rest
so that by next week my batteries are fully-charged for another
week's review.

my mom recently bought a DVD player its really cool. unfortunately
there's something wrong with the power button. shesh... i have to
wrap something thick and place a rubberband on its body in order to
fix the button. i've just seen "catch me if you can". yesterday i watched
"the ring zero", and "the hours". i was really impressed with the latter
since the plot is very enthralling. its sophisticatedness is really awesome!
one can really imagine how to be a poet, and to think about how you will
finish your story, your character... will she die? as what the poet said in the
movie that the character should die in order for the people around her to value
life...

whats up with me? well, as i've said im still recovering. I am also quite busy
with various applications at different firms. im considering an application for
Unilever, Accenture, Thompson, Procter & Gamble, etc. But i really wanted
to be employed on an auditing firm, particularly at SGV & Co which is an
affiliate of Ernst & Young. That's why im really studying hard for the board
exam. I wanted to pass the licensure exam so that i can start with my life.
Earn a living and save for my future. Well, life is really interesting you know?!
Its like a rollercoaster ride because everyone is really anxious in waiting for
ones turn and when one has finally rode the rollercoaster, that is where the fun
begins. Actually it still depends on the person on how he is going to face the
climax of the ride, is it not? In the end, the person will evaluate if he did
enjoy the ride? Is his life fulfilling?

harharhar... i really miss blogging ...
i havent made an entry for quite a long time!
that's why i kept on saying none sense crap!
anyway, thanks for all those who signed my g-book!
its greatly appreciated!
btw, you can also type a thing or two over at my chatterbox
dont worry, i wont bite you! hehehe
miss y'all... bye! ;P

long time no blog...
im here at burgundy
can't sleep
just finished studying practical acctg 1
im supposed-to-be-sleeping but im not
my room8s are still playing cards
anyway, i just graduated last saturday
it was one helluva event...
i was really excited back then.
now i got to feel the feeling of triumph
ive succeeded on one of my endeavors
which is of course graduating on time
even though i didnt get any honors
i am still damn proud to graduate w/o failing any subjects
am happy that my parents are proud of me
we went to westin plaza after the graduation
right now, i vow to study harder for my board
i want to have a place on the top20 on our board exam
again, i have to unleash my determined and hardworking side of my personality... :)